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This Is Your Sign

Hey you, I see you. I know who you are. Thanks for being here.

What I know about you is that you've been looking for a sign. More specifically, you've been looking for that sign that you're okay and that it's going to be okay. I know you've been looking for it because that's usually the sign that I need too. I'm here to tell you that it is okay.

I know what you're going through right now. More likely than not, you're finally having more good days than bad days, but even good doesn't feel quite good enough to you. You're struggling with whether it's okay to still be in a slowed down state, or if you should be back to performing at your best. You're worried that maybe you're not doing enough and then you're not feeling motivated anyway, and you succumb to being okay with not being enough. But there's still a little bit of that guilt that eats inside of you.

You miss normal, but you're also a fighter and a survivor. So, you're making this new normal work for you and you're doing a really good job. And I acknowledge you for that. But there's just this sense of feeling like it's not good enough or feeling like you're going to be judged for it. And the worst part about it is that most people probably wouldn't even guess what's going through your head because you're you and you're amazing and you're making it look good, no matter what.

So, I just want you to know that I see you and I want you to know that whether you're actually performing at your peak or you're giving yourself a break, or you’re between the two, based on how you feel that day, that's all perfect. And that even the choices you're making right now – whether it's to keep the status quo or cut your own bangs, adopt a dog or find a new apartment, quit your job or stay in your job, hide in your bed or paint your nails wacky colors, or dye your own hair and regret it – all of those choices are going to work out for you, too.

There's divine timing in this. No matter what you choose, it's going to be okay.

And the other thing I want you to know is that you can celebrate and acknowledge anything you have right now. They're all wins. You woke up this morning and you put on pants? That's a win. You opened a bottle of wine and didn't finish it last night? That's a win. You finished it last night, but it was totally guilt-free and you watched an amazing movie while doing it? That's a win. In some capacity, you’ve conquered what it means to live virtually. And even though you're feeling fatigued, you're still showing up every single day. That's a win.

And I also get that in all of that, it might be hard to let go of the nagging feeling that it's still not good enough.

The reason I know that that's how it feels is because that's how it's going over here for me, too. I have a lot of tools and training under my belt – and it still goes that way. It’s just part of the human experience. It’s totally okay and it doesn't mean anything about you. It doesn't have to mean that you're any less great or any less brilliant or any less capable or any less powerful or any less good at your job or any less of a partner or any less of anything you are.

You are whole and complete and wondrous. And my guess is that the biggest problem you’re struggling with right now is just finding a way to celebrate that. And maybe it's because it's felt like it's been a long time since you've had a win.

Maybe, to you, just surviving or keeping to status quo doesn't feel win-worthy enough, and you're just struggling to see the other side. You're struggling to see the possibility. You're struggling to understand what's waiting for you on the other side of this.

Now, if that's the case and you've read this far and you believe in messages: This message is for you. I just want you to know that I'm here. You don't have to do this alone. You probably have been doing it alone for many years and you've been amazing at it. And this is finally the scenario in your life where doing it alone doesn't work and you feel tired and you feel lonely.

And I want you to know that I'm here to be your partner in this.

When you need acknowledgement, when you need a reminder of what is working, when you need a little bit of tough love or a smack in the butt, and when you need lots of love and compassion, I'm your girl.

And so, if you've been reading this and you get that this message is for you, I hope that you'll respond to it – because it's time. Pick up the phone, shoot me an email, send me a carrier pigeon. Whatever method rings true to you, reach out – because I'm here to support you.

I want you to live a life that is completely undefended, a life that is joyous, vibrant, and celebrated and true to who you are without worrying about any other of the rules that you thought you've had to follow to this point. And I want you to feel great about being great.

I see you, I hear you, and I celebrate you. And this is the time. This is your message.

Reach out. I'll be waiting.